Dougle is the hero of the day. He helped me realize what to do, he told me things I've been thinking but ignored or pretended I never thought because I didn't want to.. "Ditch him Selene, there is better for you."
I first decided that I would wait till friday and see if anything changes, even though I knew it won't. But now I've made up my mind, I'm not going to Darling over christmas. I'm probably gonna have the time to change my mind, but I won't. I'm gonna tell him as soon as we talk again, which could just as well be on like.. friday. I don't know really. He wasn't on msn at all today. Yesterday he made me feel like everything was ok, but then today again he was with Ellen and Venom and didn't talk to me at all.
And I decided another thing was well. I'm gonna start saving up money so I can go to england and actually travel around to all the people I wanna meet, among those is Dougle and possibly Darling as well, Idunno rly, so well I'll go there on the summer holidays and be gone for maybe 3 weeks or so. Hopefully my mom will accept this... But well it's over half a year left. I'm gonna start saving money after christmas though, so I'm sure I have enough when that day comes.
And for now, I'm just very very very happy I've got Dougle, I wouldn't be able to do this, at least not this easilly if it wasn't for him *(insert heart-emoticon here)*
(And omg this is my 6th post today LMAO)
