I realized that I never said who this person is, even ifit doesn't matter if I say it now. Well, as I guess at least someone should've figuret out by now, it's obviously Victor. That he hadn't answered my text made me feel quite.. unconfortable. So I just sent him another one commenting this and the answer was that he didn't answer cuz it's nothing you should talk about over texts. Clever boy, I must say. I didn't like saying it through a text really, but I'm just.. well, as I've said, my confidence is on 0 and I would never have dared to say it any other way. So, however.. Yeah.. I'm gonna be all nervious for tomorrow now.

Exept that.. I was sopposed to goto the hospital yesterday but thingys happened and I ended up not going there. So I'm going there next friday instead.

Oh, and yeah.. Something quite.. fascinating, just happened. When I was going between to school to the liberary where I am right now this random guy started talking to me. He said something about liking my outfit, asked where I lived and then how old I am. I'm 16, I answered, and he was all like "Omg I'm sorry...". He obviously thought I was quite alot older then I am (he looked like.. 25, maybe). I've always been mistakened for being older then I am, when I was 13 someone thought I was 20 (that woman must've been blind though) and people usually think I'm about 2 years older then I am. But however, this havn't happened in a while now and lately I've also thought that I look quite small. I think it's after I changed my haircut.. Uhm, however. And well. 1st, I'm not used to getting flirted with and I really don't feel confortable with it. Not all. And 2nd I was surpired over how he thought I was so much older then I am.

And well that's about everything interesting that've happened today, haha. I'm not going back home but stay at the flat tomorrow (as I think I've said before, I live at one place monay-friday and at my actual home friday-monday) cuz on saturday we're having this.. I dunno what to call it.. a day at school when people who plan on starting here next year can come and everyone show up the different things you can study here. So I'm gonna be singing in the choir, playing the bass on a song we play in the ensamble and randomly walk around and advertse the music.. thingy.. (I really can't be bothered to think of good words to explain things today) And then, sence I'm gonna be at school from 9-14 on saturday I'm free on monday instead.
Blabla. I don't know what to say really. My brain is all fucked up. I've got 35 minutes left on my time here but I've got nothing to do really, no one to talk to, so I think I'll head back home soon. Not that I actually have anything to do there either.. But anyways. I've got a english test tomorrow so I better practice for that I guess. So byebye for now. I'll be back tomorrow.

I'm sopposed to be writing about a photographer right now.. But I really can't be bothered to. I can't think properly.. I told him yesterday. That I like him. Although I did it the most cowardly way existing, through a text. And he still havn't answered it.. And I so don't know how to take that and i kind of can't stop thinking about it either.
I was sitting on the bus yesterday, listening to music, when a song started that made me realize that what the hell.. What have I got to loose? Seriously? It's not like hw wouldn't wanna be my friend anymore after finding out. Right? So, with other words, it could only do good. But I dunno anymore. Maybe I shouldn't have.. Maybe it would've been better if I just kept quiet about it.. And here I go again, soubting my own actions. I seem to be so sure about what I'm doing but yet I end up thinking like this, doubting things I was sure about. Geez.. I have to learn not to do that. Stop doubting yourself Selene, stop it, STOP IT. Now!
Oh whatever.. Class is over in 5 minutes and then I have maths.. Equal listening to music and scribbling, and probably alot of thinking. Yay me. I've got a computer booked at the liberary after school so I'll probably write a bit more later.