Sooo... I talked to Victor today.. And I still feel all.. I dunno really. Embarassed? Confused? Idunno. Well, among the first things he said was "I didn't think you would actually dare to say anything till like.. christmas" With other words, he already knew I liked him. Therefore the.. Feeling I don't know what word to use for. However.. His answer, or whatever to call it, was more or less "I don't know" lol. Soo.. we're now.. Dating.. or something.. I'm quite confused really. But whatever. it's over with now and it feels kind of relieving, what will happen from now.. Is inpossible to tell I guess.

A quite ironic thing.. I'm talking to Jesper on msn. he was here... 4(?) weeks ago and was with me at school at one day and after that he kept saying to me that Victor likes me. It's something about that Jesper thought Victor was looking like.. angy, or jealous, or whatever, when he saw me and jesper holding hands. However, we're talking right now and he just said to me "Hey Selene, you should make a move on Victor." and I was all like "Err.. I already have.." and then explained what I just said and blabla and Jesper seems to be quite very sure Victor's a coward and really do like me but bleh, whatever. Dunno why I said that really, I just find it quite ironic.

I'm starting to realize how I really do nothing when I'm at home. And how I don't actually want to go home. I felt this once before, about 2 years ago. That I try to avoid being at home because that's not where I'm.. happy.. or whatever. As I think I've already said, I'm not going back to my  "real" home today cuz we have this thingy at school tomorrow. And then in the evening I have to go with my family to this dinner thingy that my little sister's class is having to collect money for their schooltrip. And then I've got no school on monday, when I'm gonna go back to the flat and probably do something with Victor. (wohew, stepping outside the door for something else then school. lmao) (lmao = french cat. According to Orkra. Although it actually means laughing my ass off)
Uuuhm... So yeah.. That's what's happening right now and is about to happen. Nothing interesting really. And I've still got half an hour left of this boring lesson.. I guess it's better being here then at home though. Cuz when I'm at home, at the flat, more or less all I do is sleep.. eat.. and watch my brother play on the xbox. Quite, no very boring actually. Maybe I should start writing or something. Just to have something to do.. Ehm.. rambling.
Hooowever.. Cya all tomorrow.

I've got a 3 hours long break.. I always have this on fridays but I usually go home. Couldn't be bothered to today though. It's rainy and blabla. And I've got a computer here, not at home, haha.
I'm talking to a friend, I call her Kuwde (weird spelling of the swedish word for "pillow". Don't ask why, it's a.. weird story.). We used to talk alot before but nowadays we don't and she said earlier that she's been missing me and our very.. random.. conversations. It always makes me happy to hear such things. That people miss me.
And then Venom, a friend through xbox live, started talking to me about Darling. He asked what happened between us and was all like "I'm sorry that happened. I must say you two were really cute together. blablaaa"  It kind of annoys me.. It's not like I broke up with him because I didn't want to.
I'm still all confused about him, by the way. I talked to him on.. monday, I think, through private chat on xbox live and he was all.. Normal. It was real confusing. Or maybe not.. I don't know. I havn't talked to John sence he said all those things about Darling either. And I still really don't know who of them I should trust. I want to trust Darling, but I can't help but believing Johns version more... Oh well.. I've got nothing more to say really. I've got computer science.. thingy.. later today, so I'll probably write some more then.
Take care