Tueday and back to school. Today's been more or less like every other day at school. Just great. I really have no idea what it is with school that makes me feel good, but hey, it does, so why complain. Not much have happened really. Nothing to say about today...
Yesterday though.. I spend more or less all day with Victor, I guess you could call that our first date.. Or something like that. What we did was.. Walking around.. for 5 hours.. just talking. And I must say, it really didn't feel like 5 hours. My legs could tell that afterwords though, haha. And I fell asleep at half 9. Wtf? However.. I and VIctor were talking about, literally, everything and nothing. Everything from school, videogames, films.. To quite deep things, life, what's in our past and such.
i remember one specific thing he said. (Or well, I remember quite alot of things he said but you know what I mean). He told me quite alot about how he's good at.. Erm.. Reading other persons? Understanding things they "say" even though they don't say anything. How he realized I like him before I even did myself and blabla. However, he said this... That from what heard, when it comes to this whole John/darling who-to-trust-thing, he's quite sure John's the one telling the truth. When he said that, it was the same feeling as when Dougle said "But how special was it with you and Andy anyways?" It was like he confirmed what I already knew but refused to admit to myself. I've always thought that Darling's the one lying about this, but I didn't want to admit that I thought so. But now after Victor said that I realized I have to stop that. I'm quite sure Darling's lying, even though I'm probably never gonna find out the trust. Just face it Selene, Darling' a liar.
But hey, when I think about it, what would actually be the worst anyways. If Darling or John's the one lying? I'm already kind of slipping away from Darling, but I'm starting to become friend with John again.
Another thing that I've realized... I really like Victor, obviouslt enough. But however this turns out I guess I'm gonna have a good friend. I mean, it we're gonna spend more time together and blabla..
Oh and yeah, btw, Victor; By "Half 11" I mean "Half past 11", and you can say that, it's just an everyday way of saying it. I just copied John and Andy and like.. all of my xbox live friends when I started saying that, so blame them if it's wrong, haha.
I've been talking to Jesper while typing this. And omg he's got so many opinions when it comes to me and Victor. And he seems to think I still like him, cuz he said something about some girl she met that was real cute and then he added "I shouldn't have said that, it probably made you pissed." though I didn't really care at all. However.. I told him I was with Victor yesterday, what we did and blabla.. And, well, if he would've been here he would probably have screamed it out; "He's such a coward!" He seems to be so sure he likes me, and thinks that's enough for him to make a move on me. The way he said that, and some things he said afterwords, Jesper seems to thing Victor should like.. rape me in a dark alley or something, lol. My answer to that was something about him being serious as a difference from most people. Which he took like a real insult and started rambling about how I was like.. on him and not him on me and.. Blah. Idunno. He's kind of starting to annoy me, alot.
