I just deleted Andy from my friendslist on xbox live... Just a random comment.
I'm going to the hospital tomorrow (as I was sopposed to last wednesday) and omg it's all... so.. comlicated! It takes about 1h 15 mintues to get there, but to get beck home.. that's just a fucking disaster. It takes 2-3 hours and blabla.. I really can't be bothered with it but I have to. And also, this means I have to leave school at about 10:30, aka I probably won't see Victor at all tomorrow. Or during the weekend. Sad face...
But yeah.. Yesterday and the day before yesterday (once I calmed down about Andy) I didn't seem to be able to stop thinking about him. It kind of.. Idunno.. Annoys me, somehow. I want to be independent, I don't want to need someone else to be happy, to "survive". Every time that happens, every time I seem to rely everything on some inportant person.. That ends up being a living hell, me being hurt and dreams getting crushed. And I kind of want to avoid that.. But I seem to be failing, miserably. But yet again, I worry too much, don't I?
I think the answer for everything that seems to be so complicated and confused in my life at the moment is very easy, standing there in front of me. I just seem to deny it, try to ignore it.
I guess I'm just.. Seriously in love.

My blood glycose is low (stupid diabetes), I really don't know what to say and I just feel.. Quite down for some reason. I'm off to go home now.. Get something to eat and.. Err.. Think, which is more or less all there's to do at the flat. Yay me.