Okay, so I've actually talked to Darling now.. Or well.. At least I know a bit more now. Thanks to Cheggs he started talking to me, and apparently he's just feelng really bad lately. Apparently people have been talking behind his back and stuff at school.. I can't help but getting annoyed cuz of that. I've been trhought that, several times. It've happened to me twice that people are talking shit behind my back and I'm the last one to find out. Or well, people have been talking shit about me many many times. But I never really cared though, cuz I'm the kind of person who care about what the persons I care about thinks about me, but more or less ignore the rests opinions.
However... So he's been feeling bad because of this. That still doesn't explain why he havn't been talking to me though.. But thinking of that he just told me he's feeling crap I don't really feel like pushing him about that. And I feel kind of relieved now, knowing at least some of what's wrong. I was really feeling horrible not knowing what was going on, just seeing something wa wrong and thinking it was something that had to do with me and Darling... I thought several times that maybe I shouldn't go to him over christmas anyways. But as I've said before, I'm good at changing my opinion and I'm once agan as sure as can get that I should go there. I just have to get Darling to ask his mom if I can come first, omg, he still havn't...
Wellwell, that'll be it for today. I'm having a horrible headache and am looking forward to tomorrow. I like tuesdays, I've got more or less only good lessons. Exept the P.E.. I hate P.E, haha. But I have singing lesson tomorrow and.. Blabla. Bye.

First day at school after half term.. And today hve contained many different emotions. Mostly good ones though. I met my friends again and I'm finally starting to feel like I'm actually part of a 'group' at school (if you get what I mean? I don't know how to explain it and I can't really be bothered to either..) so generally I've been quite happy today. And then there's been these few spacial moments..

As I've said, I'm studying music. And one of the courses I'm doing is ensemble. With other words; playing in bands. My main instument is vocals but there's quite many in my class with this so at the moment we have 4 esambles, and one of them contains vocalists only. And, atm I'm playing the bass. We're doing this song and blabla when we were playing it I started inrpovising a little and I felt quite happy with it cuz it actually sounded quite good eve though I didnt really know what the hell I was doing. So, for a couple of minutes, I felt real proud of myself. But when we finished playing the song and the class was over my teacher said she thought the guitar and bass could inprovise a bit more. With other words; she didn't hear me, at all, and told me to do something I had already come up with myself. I couldn't be asked to tell her though, but still. It annoyed me quite alot.
A better thing when it comes to schoolwork... I'm taking a course in photogrophy and really likes it, it's really kwl we take photos with real cameras and develop them and stuff.. However, first, I have this photo I've taken that every time my teacher sees it he's all "omg I love that photo!" which always akes me proud. And also, there's this girl also taking this course who havn't even finnished one of the 3 tasks we've been doing now for about a month and are sopposed to be done with in about  week. (I'm nearly done with all of them, just gonna re-do one of them cuz I can get it alot better then I did) And my teacher asked me to help her! That must logically mean he thinks I'm good enough to guide her and also thinks I can actually do such thing. And that just makes me really proud lmao.

However.. I've got a headache and I'm hungryyyy like hell. But we've got no food here what so ever! My brother's off to the store to get some though. But however. I shall now send that letter for the swedish thingy to my teacher and then go play some fable 2 with Ryan. (Ohyes, yet another xbox live friend.) So long.