Ok, right now feels a bit.. Awkward.. Cheggs just literally askewd me out. "if u and vic break up, will u go out with me?" he said. And I was all like ookay.. what to answer, what to answer? Because I really don't want to hurt him more then I've already managed to do. So I just rambled something about me staying away from long distance relationships and that I'm not really planning on me and Victor breaking up so I'm not gonna concider it. And then Cheggs said "just don't break up with him just so u can go out with me, ok?" and.. ok.. I dunno wtf he got that from? it seems like Cheggs thinks I actually do fancy him but.. Awrgh.. I don't like this. I wanna do all I can to avoid hurting Cheggs but at this moment.. it's quite hard.

I borrowed Crow's xbox headset and got to actually talk to Ross today as well. And we were in the Halo 3 pre-game-lobby for like 20 minutes just talking. He asked me what actually happened between me and Andy. Why I broke up, blabla. We've talked about it several times before, but this was the first time I actually got the change to explain it probperly. Cuz we were talking and we were alone as well. And then we talked a bit about this whole thing with him and his ex, all I knew is she met someone else and left him and now he explained it more properly to me. It was kind of the same thing that happened with me and Andy as with Ross and his girflriend, which i find a bit freaky.
Then i asked Ross to show me his tattoos (he's got 5 of them D and now I'm all.. omg.. Cuz I so wanna get a proper tattoo. And he's got one on his.. dunno which arm, like a tribal dragon, which is the one I liked the most.. And he's designed it himself! And I hate him for that, haha. And he's also got this tribal-ish tattoo on the upper part of his back  which I love as well.
And then I think I shouldn't mention everything he's said. I think Ross is actually falling in love with me as well. Or he's just very horny on.. me.. (lol) erm whatever. Idunno what I'm on about anymore rly.

Just a couple of hours left till I'll gee Victor again. Happiness. 2 hours till I'll leave for the bus. And hopefully dinner in like an hour.. I'm getting hungry.

And just.. I realized how random the titles for my posts are. I usually just pick a quote from a song I'm listening to atm moment or such. And usually.. Those quotes doens't fit the text at all. Buuut however. Random comment.

I had yet another nightmare tonight.. or well, maybe not nightmare, but.. unpleasant dream. And there was two of them as well. I woke up from one of them, fell asleep again and had another one..

The first one was.. Not actually frightening or something like that, it was just really unpleasant. I can't remember very much of what was actually happening.. But I remember that I was smoking. And I'm as inti-smoking as can get. Kind of. I hate it, I can  hardly even stand being next to someone smoking sometimes. However.. I was smoking. And I enjoyed it. And in the middle of everything I realized how anti-smoking Victor is as well and I was all like "I have to stop, and he can never find out about this.." That was abot it. But the thing was.. When I woke up, I still felt the same way as when I was dreaming. My mind still thought I had been smoking and that I liked it. I even had the taste I had in the dream left in my thoughts and could stil feel it - and liked it. And I was still a bit panicked over Victor, and my parents as well. It was all just very freaky.. For a while there I thought I had actually started smoking. Which is something I've promised not only myself but a friend as well that I'll never, ever do.

The second one was a bit more.. Odd. It was like a mixture of two dreams I've had before. And also, throughout all the dream it was like I followed two versions of it at the same time. One where I was quite sure I was gonna die in the end and one where I.. err.. hoped not to. This dream was all about that I had a ring of some kind that made it possible for me to fly and there were all these people trying to kill me because of this and I spent all dream being chased, trying to escape, finding a place where I could go without them figuring out. And I'd seen this place where I was before, in another dream. And I've dreamt about this flying thingy before as well and.. Well.. That dreams wajust quite weird. And a bit creepy as well, sence I was being chased and had to run for my life, constantly..

I'm gonna get dressed now and then go play some Halo 3 with Ross, and in about 6 hours I'm off to get back to the flat.