I love this song, it's so touching.. All songs from that film, "Once", are so touching. We started watching it during english class today and I got so darn emotional haha.. I tried to ignore it though, I mean I was in the middle of the classroom for god's sake.
And by the way, I'm starting to wonder if I'm falling in love... I mean, actually falling in love. Not just what I always seem to feel when I say I'm in love, not just being happy talking to someone. I'm actually starting to feel something like.. I miss this person, all the time. I want to be with him, and when I'm with him I wish for him to talk to me, look at me, all the time... And right now.. Well yeah, as I said, I miss him. Oh geez... And I'm not gonna say who this is, no, cuz there's a risk he woud actually read it.

However, it's over between Darling and me.. I havn't talked to him, but it's still over, for me it is. I'll talk to him once he's on msn. Which could be tomorrow or in days, i don't know and I don't care, he's got himself to blame. He doesn't talk to me, and once he does he's just mean to me. That's exactly the same that happened with John.. And I won't go through that again. No way. For once in a while I will do what I know I should do at once, and not stay and fight for something I know won't help. Not again. And I will try to stay out of long distance relationships... It only seem to hurt me, no matter how wonderful it always seem to be in the beginning. It's time for me to find a home where I can stay. I've made up my mind.

Yet another quite good day. And I realized something quite.. no very good today. I felt horrible just before I left to school today and nearly stayed at home. But then I decided I wouldn't, cuz if I didn't go to school, well then I wouldn't meet the people I wanted to meet! It was over 2 years sence I felt like that the last time.. That I had friends in school that I literally longed to see, that I wanted to see bad enough that I would go to school when I actually shouldn't. I think I'm finally starting to feel like home again.. For a while I just wanted to get away from here, as quickly as possible and as far away as possible. But now I don't feel like that anymore.. I still want to go to england and see all my friends and stuff, but I don't feel bad for not being able to atm anymore.

And when I came home Dougle started talking to me straight away and in half an hour I will go on Halo 3 and play with him and Victor. And for now.. I shall keep trying to avoid being annoyed with Darling for, once again, being on xbl with Ellen but not on msn with me, eat my candy and wait for some good Halo-n00bing.
So Long sukerz.

I always seem to feel bad both in the mornings and the evenings nowadays. Or the last week I have. Which leads to that I always start the days really badly and then can't fall asleep in the evenings.. So I havn't slept properly in a week now. I know I don't feel bad only because I've been ill but also because I've been feeling cuz of all this with Darling and the autumn depression is at its worst point. But then yet again I usually feel quite good, if not really good somewhere in between these horrible moments. Right now I'm just looking forward to going to school and trying to ignore my headache. I don't start till 12 today, so I'm not leaving till 11:10 (it takes about 20 minutes to get to school and then I'm gonna eeeeat..)

All I actually have to do now is prepare the book presentation.. And then I'm gonna check what bus I have to take when I go to the hospital next wednesday (I'm a diabetic so that's why I'm going there) cuz I think I'm gonna miss my english test :S or if the test was on fridy maybe...? Ah well, I'll have to check that up haha. Oh and maybe I should take a shower aswell.. Or at least get dressed!
As I guess you can notice I don't really have anything to say. I'm more or less just waiting to go to school.
Ttyl