A little more then a year ago I had this period where I constantly needed to change the way I look. If I didn't do anything to change it (came up with a new make up, changed my hair, got some new clothes and such) that made me feel seriously bad. I got fed up with myself and constantly needed changing. This ended up with me being obsessed with my hair, in half a year I had.. 8 or 9 different kinds of hair I think. Then I managed to bleach it too much and my hair cied completely. And now... Well I realized the fact that having hair that looks different does quite alot. I started to miss having bright read überly backkombed hair and I'm getting tired of having my ordinary brown haircolor. So I'm thinking about, or well I'm quite sure I will, change my haircolor again. And i can actually bleach it without problem now cuz at least 90% of my hair isn't even part of the hair I killed cuz I've cut it all off. And well yeah... I'm getting tired of seeing my face, looking the same every day. And i'm getting tired of seeing myself wearing the same clothes every day. I'm just.. Getting tired of myself again. And I really hate this. I wonder if it's got anything to do with christmas coming up? Cuz as I said, it's only a little more then a year sence this happened the last time.
However.. I think I'm gona bleach my hair down so it's actually white and then dye parts of it in a dark purple color. I have absolutely no idea either it's gonna suit me or not.. But I'll do it anyways. In like a month or so. I just have to get the bleach and then I'm quite sure I have enough pruple dye left to do what I want with that. Blabla.

Apart from that.. There isn't rly a shit going on. My mom and sister are decorating the tree and hanging up all the christmas decorations and stuff while listening to christmas music. And I'm still not in the christmas mood.. Geez, it's gonna be just like last year. No christmas spirit what so ever. It's quite depressing actually. I used to love christmas and the mood of it, but now.. I just don't seem to get into it.
I'm off to the flat and to see Victor in less then 2 hours... I'm more or less just waiting for that. I gotta go down and ask my mom if I'm gonna get dinner before I leave or not...