That lyric wasn't about Andy. You're wrong. Don'r worrt, it's about something completely different.
There's this one thing that's so... bad about me. Something I cannot be bothered to change. I've been working with most of my "problems" and most of them are... gone. But this is something I cannot be bothered to put as much energy to as it's needed. And that is the fact that I never choose myself over anyone else. If I have to make a decision and one option means what's best for me and one means what's best for someone else I care about I choose what's best for te other. And also, if I find something wrong... if something makes me feel bad, but this thing makes someone else well I simply don't say anything. Or well.. this usually leads to me feeling crap over something and in the end it makes me flip and I more or less ruine thing (see the similarity to what happened when I flipped at Andy? That's exactly what happened. I didn't say anything and in the end it fucked up.)
The thing is... if I would try to do anything about this it would mean I had to start telling people what I feel. Doing the opposite of what I want to do. And I can't do that.. Telling prople to change cuz it makes me feel well, I just don't do that. So.. there that problem remains. There I keep feeling like shit cuz I cannot say anything. And yes, one of these things are going on at the moment. And it's probably gonna end up getting seriously bad... But I can't do anything about that. I won't do anything about that. It'll end up the way it will.. And I'll just sit here, watching while it happens, feeling shit about it and.. Ah whatever.
