Being away from Victor is seriously not good for me..
I enjoy the time alone, I do. I enjoy the fact that I get the chance to do what I usually do, mess around with friends on the xbox, be on the computer talking to people all day and night, do some sewing and some excercising every once in a while. I need that, and I like having that for a weekend every once in a while. But it also always turns out to be the times I feel the worst. I know how to handle it, and most weekends I spend a couple of hours every night down at the TV with the rest of the family and that way I won't feel bad, but the last couple of days (especually today) I haven't, I've barely been around people at all today. And that's starting to show now.
As it gets darker outside, I get more tired, my music goes more and more depressin and so does my mood. And to be honest, most of the times I'm not even sure why. It's like me + loneliness = thinking and feeling bad, even if things are generally pretty good. The worst things right now is the fact that I miss Victor like hell and the fact that this new "darling"-relationship with Adam is part making me big confused somehow, and also making me sentimental. Although it's also making me feel really happy, cuz the friendship I had with Darling and seems to be evolving with Adam is the best kind I've ever had.
Bah. Idunno wtf's going on and i try to put as little effort into it as possible.
Today was ok, really really slow though.. I've spent at least 5 hours being all überly bored. Blablabla. I can't be bothered to talk anymore right now, and I'm hungry so I'm gonna go down and get something to eat..
xxxx
